It's hard to believe Ellie is 3-years-old already. It's hard to believe we've been living life with a mini emergency room that travels with Ellie everywhere she goes including from room-to-room in the house and to the backyard to play for almost 3 years. It's hard to believe we've given up privacy and quiet family time to welcome help and nurses into our home and our family for 3 years.
To be honest, I wasn't looking foward to this day. I was afraid of dealing with my mind swirling with the excruciatingly painful images and emotions of Ellie's first day and week of life. It was a really dark place for me. I was afraid too because I recently went off my anti anxiety/anti depressant medication that I was prescribed in the first week of Ellie's life for "situational depression". I wasn't sure I'd be able to handle today without it. I'm happy to say, today has actually been okay. I think the happy memories and experiences finally outweigh the sad. We've had so much to celebrate and so many little milestones that it's almost hard to believe Ellie was as fragile as she was.
Our family accomplishments with Ellie as a 2-year-old
3-year-old Ellie is going to accomplish so much more!
Courtney is Ellie's mom. She and her villiage have been raising Ellie (and her big brother Nathan) and learning how to live with and manage life around Ellie's physical disabilities and special needs. It's not easy but our villiage is amazing. Thank you to all of you who support us, love us, and provide hope, wishes and prayers.